piano…? umm…

sarah really hasn’t practiced in the last 2 weeks.

sarah feels guilty about this.

she has things she has to work on over the summer.

but she feels even more guilty that she doesn’t want to practice.

but she actually does want to practice – at least part of her does.

sarah really needs to practice.

oh my. why am i so complicated and… musician-ish?

while i have been not practicing, i’ve been doing things like going to lots of graduation events and sleeping in scandalously late (the sad thing is, i try to get up earlier. but i keep doing that thing where you see what time it is and think ‘i’ve got to wake up,’ and start to get up, but next thing you know you’re waking up again and it’s almost noon. what’s up with that?). i’ve also been doing massive cleaning and organizing of all my stuff. i’ve decided that going through a very cluttered room is a lot like what i go through when writing a big paper. there’s so many little things, and you don’t know where to start. it’s very frustrating, but i’m slowly getting my way-too-many wordly possessions downsized.

all the graduation things lately have got me thinking about my graduation (which will hopefully only be 3 years from now) from *gulp* college. that just sounds scary. three years is not very long at all, and i know it will be here very quickly. yikes.

so i guess i better get practicing…

summer

it’s almost here. well, it feels like it’s already here outside. finals aren’t quite over yet – but i’m trying not to worry about them. actually, i don’t even have to try – they’re not the first thing on my mind, more like something i just have to get over with.

i have decided i love summer. i love feeling refreshed instead of frozen when i walk into an air conditioned building. i love swimming. i love the way things smell in the summer. i love the smell of water, sunscreen, and whatever perfume i’m wearing all mixed together with the warmth of the sun on my skin. i love being in the water, in a pool or at the beach, and feeling totally relaxed. it’s a feeling that lasts even after i’m out of the water.

i think beaches are one of God’s most amazing creations (if there could be such a category). not only are they beautiful, but they are so… therapeutic, in a way. just feeling the breeze, hearing the waves, standing in the water – i think the best word for it is sublime. it describes the feeling of summer to me.

just writing this, i’m reminded that God has given me so many good (maybe even ‘happy’?) things, from great people in my life with whom i’ve had some great times, to lovely experiences of being outdoors in the season He created. i have a lot to be thankful for – even though i may get discouraged, my life has been peppered with wonderful things.